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And welcome back to Pastor Plex Podcast.
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I'm your host, Pastor Plex, along with Bruno DeCanto, knowing that because we don't talk about Bruno.
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No.
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No, no, no.
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This is part three.
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I know.
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Part three uh of a crazy story of a missionary to those who were uh to those, I guess, anti-human trafficking missionary.
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But is that a good way to put that?
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Yeah, yeah.
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So we would label ourselves as an uh abolitionists or anti-human traffickers.
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Okay.
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And and specifically, we talked about how it really took a toll on your life.
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Yeah.
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Like you you really had to there's many ways that was awesome.
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Like you got to do some incredible mission, missionary work, you had to share the gospel globally, you got to change lives in a powerful way, you got to rescue people, but then it wrecked your family in many ways.
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It did.
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And so um, let's just finish up.
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You were in Ukraine, and when as a missionary, uh you're you're there kind of doing um what would be the wet best way to describe that work?
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Um missionary work.
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We were just telling people about Jesus in the best way we could, uh whether that was through medical missions, right, um events.
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On the front lines, yeah, yeah.
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Uh or like you know, back a little bit in the rear, just to kind of uh everywhere we were at, yeah.
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Okay, so you're doing that when and then things broke down with your wife.
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How did that happen?
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And then, you know, at what point did you go, hey, we gotta get out of here, or you know, she didn't want to leave, you didn't want to leave.
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Like at what point do you realize, oh no, things are falling apart and we need to get help?
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So I think she realized we were in trouble before we went to Ukraine and I did the classic man thing, and I was like, What are you talking about?
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Things are so good right now.
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Okay.
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And um, but then it was uh it was actually in the middle of uh it was in the middle of one of our missions in order to get the orphanage.
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Uh I stayed on the Russian side, no, on the Ukrainian side, and uh she moved over to Georgia and she started working from Georgia, and we were working with it separately like this.
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And is this where she did an interview at some point?
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She did, yeah.
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Where she just told everybody who she was and what she did, and it kind of was like that was after the kids came across.
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Um the the Georgian government came in, the president of Georgia was there, all this, and they were like, Hey, we need you on stage, and she just kind of was like, All right, let's do it.
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Woo-hoo, spotlight.
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And I was like, Whoa, that's not supposed to happen.
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Right.
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Uh, and I was dealing with a lot, and that's that's kind of like when I attached myself to the Legion, which I promised I wouldn't do.
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Oh.
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So you went to go do some real conflict fighting.
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I had a lot of steam to blow off.
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Yeah, like I need to go wreck shop on some fools.
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Yeah, that was not the right move.
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I, you know, sometimes Christians and missionaries, we move before God does.
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That's kind of what I did there.
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I started working on my own thing.
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Oh, yeah.
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So talk to me about that.
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Like, talk to me what kind of work you're doing.
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Like when you say you joined the Legion, is this the French Foreign Legion?
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No, it's the International Legion.
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The International, which is the the one obviously we know that one more readily because of movies and stuff, but yeah.
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The International Legion, where you go to fight alongside other internationals, yeah.
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Um, you're you're like, hey, put me in coach, I'm ready to go, kill the bad guys.
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Yeah, yeah, and so who were you which team were you on?
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Who were you fighting?
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I was with Ukraine and we were fighting against Russia.
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Um, and largely I went there as a missionary.
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I knew a lot of the guys.
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Um, I was uh you know so a long time ago, I went to be a corpsman, yeah, and I kept up with my training.
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I was in combat different times throughout my career, and I was like, well, this is what I'm made to do, it's what I'm good at.
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And I had received other news before Heather went that I didn't tell her about, and I was just uh it was a really hard time.
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I was dealing with a lot.
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Uh and I I had just received news that I was sick, and I was like, they're just saying that.
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When you say you really what kind of sick?
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Uh I that I had found out that I had cancer.
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What kind of cancer?
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Stomach cancer.
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Like tell, like, you know, for those who are not familiar with what stuff how does that work?
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And like, is it like a hole in your stomach, a lesion, or what is that?
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Uh so you you have these little nodes and tumors and stuff, and depending on how many tumors you have, it's serious.
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And I had six of them, which put me into uh uh level three so like stage three cancer, like a stage three C cancer.
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So tell me about like your how that affected your body, how that affected your heart, where you're at spiritually, and all that.
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Yeah, so um it affected my body in weird ways.
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Like I knew something was wrong, that's why I went to get tested uh because I had just a lot of blood in places it shouldn't be.
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Right.
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Um couldn't eat right, just nerves.
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I was really tired.
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I was angry, but I figured it was just you know, mission.
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Right.
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Um spiritually, when I so after I heard it all, it was really hard, but I decided not to tell anybody uh because I didn't want to ruin the mission.
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Right.
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You know, uh I was really not questioning God, but I was really angry because I was like, man, I'm all alone.
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I can't tell anybody because I don't want to have to go home.
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We're in the middle of this operation, you know, the guys need me, my friends are out there fighting.
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I don't I don't want to be the guy to get sent home and make everybody stop.
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And that kind of blinded me to a lot of things too.
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So how did it progress?
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It was like, hey, I saw some blood work, or like, how'd you even like how do you find out you have cancer?
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Yeah, so um I had blood in my stool and it was just getting worse and worse.
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I'm like, what is going on here?
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Uh and then once I got sick eating and it and I threw up and there's a little bit of blood in that.
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I'm like, what in the world?
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Uh so I went to the doctors and I got uh uh like a colonoscopy, and they were like, something's wrong.
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And then I got an MRI and they're like, something's very wrong.
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Uh and they were like, it looks like you have stomach cancer.
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Is this you is this in Ukraine?
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This is in Ukraine, yeah.
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Uh well, okay, so some of it was in Poland, because all right, I got a colonoscopy in in Ukraine, in uh in a city called Chernobyl.
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It's just it's not far, it's a really nice city.
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They have really good doctors, it's where they send a lot of the Legion fighters.
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Wow.
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Um, and that's also where I got to go to the hospitals and preach to the guys.
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Everybody knew me there because I was like always, hey, you want some food?
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You want to let me tell you about Jesus?
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Let's read Bible stories.
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And then next thing I know, I found myself in the bed, like, you got cancer.
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I was like, oh man.
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Um but I kept it to myself and just uh I was like, all right, let me just keep going.
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Wow.
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Yeah, and then uh and then things started falling apart between my wife and I.
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Uh I received a letter where she was like, Does she know you have cancer?
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No, you didn't tell your own wife you had cancer?
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I didn't want to stop the mission.
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I was like, let's go.
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Okay, so a relationship breakdown.
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So tell me where part, what part of your relationship, like the breakdown of relationship there where you won't tell your wife that you have cancer because you won't you want to bring her down?
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I didn't want us to have to leave and let down the kids, uh, because we were in the middle of saving a group of kids.
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Uh one of them was an American who was in the middle of You're like, if I leave now with this cancer, then it's gonna prevent us saving the lives of these people.
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Yeah, in my head, and I still feel this way, if I would have left, and if if I would have told Heather, chances are we would have left.
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And in my head, I'm like, at that point, those kids don't get found because people aren't willing to do the things that we're willing to do to find these people.
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And uh, so I just didn't say nothing, and we ran it and ran it and ran it, and things got worse and worse.
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We started arguing and fighting, and I was resentful.
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Um I've got cancer, and like if you drop that, you win the argument.
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Is that yeah, and that's a jerk move, actually.
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Did you do that?
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No, I didn't know.
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Oh, okay, good way to go.
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Wow.
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She didn't find out until we came back here in the US.
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Wow.
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Yeah.
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And so you're like bleeding out, you know, pooping blood, throwing up blood, and she has no idea.
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She had an idea, she knew, and she was like, What's going on?
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I was like, It's just stress.
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You know, she definitely knew about the blood thing.
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Oh gosh.
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Okay.
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So, so how do you decide to come back?
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Like eventually you're like, hey, so uh at this point, Heather and I had separated in Ukraine.
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Uh, we were in the house together, but we weren't together.
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You know, we we uh she came back from Georgia, we were um there was oof, it was bad.
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There was just no communication.
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Um, and she was like, Hey, you have to go, you're going crazy.
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And I said, I can't leave the family here.
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Um so we worked out a deal to where when she said you're going crazy, what'd she mean?
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Oh so I would go and I would work the front lines for a while, and then I'd come home and it just wasn't doing well at night.
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Um dreams, dreams, just anger, noises, smells, and just anger.
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The sirens were always going off.
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Uh just a lot of weird, and I wasn't doing well, and she was acting weird, and she was also really buddy buddy with this uh US Marine who was working over there, too.
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Was he a Legion guy too?
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He was, yeah, yep.
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And um, so uh he wasn't a Christian, he was just a fighter, and uh he ended up being like her special bodyguard and her emotional confidant, if you will.
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Uh and they had like an emotional affair going on right there in front of me.
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And actually, the time we went to leave was I was so all right.
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Was he a married dude or a single dude?
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Single.
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Oh okay, single.
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Um, we had this moment where I invited him out to the east, and I was like, hey man, how about you and I run out east real quick?
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We're gonna we're gonna do some stuff.
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And Heather was like, Are you going out east with you cut that out?
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And uh are you going out east?
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And he was like, Yeah, we're gonna run this.
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And she's like, Don't do it.
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He's crazy, he's gonna hurt you.
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And I was I was gonna shoot the dude.
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I was like, I was like, You're gonna we're gonna pull a David.
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Pull a Uriah back, yeah.
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Call him Uriah.
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I'm so glad that didn't happen.
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Wow, all right.
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So that's how dark you were.
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You were in a dark, dark spot.
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Yeah, I was very upset at the world.
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And so she knew that.
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She's like, You're gonna you're gonna kill him.
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Yeah, she was like, You're gonna get this guy.
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And I was like, Hello, do you see what's going on right now?
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This is wrong.
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Um so um we uh we ended up working out a deal that was I'll come back and get help, and uh she would stay out of Ukraine with the girls.
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Uh so she went to we went to Greece because Greece isn't that far and it's a beautiful place and it's restful and all that.
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Went to Greece, did a cool couple cool things.
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I came home and I went to the veteran center out in uh North South Carolina, uh, and I got what do you call that?
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When they put you in uh the home committed, and you know, I got that.
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Yeah, yeah, like you can't leave.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Uh and I was there for about two, three months.
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So you you're kind of all the rage, all the anger, all the it's just it's just flowing, even in Greece.
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I mean, when you're in Greece, was it chill or it was fairly chill.
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I don't remember a lot of it actually.
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Um, I I'll admit it, I don't remember a lot of our mission work that we do.
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Um it's a blessing and a curse.
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We can we can stop doing a lot of stuff, we can remember the ideas, but I don't remember a lot of it because it's pretty heavy stuff.
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Yeah, man.
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Um I do remember we did some cool stuff.
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We did like the walk where Jesus walked, you know, and got to walk where Paul was at, and um oh, feel like crying.
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But um and then I came home and I didn't want to, and they were like, Man, you're going crazy.
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And I was like, Well, if I can't trust these guys, then who can I trust?
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Because uh we have that team from that group I told you about, uh, and they came to get me and they were like, Hey, you really need to get yourself checked in here.
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Uh, what'd you what happened at this, like, I don't want to call it asylum, but like a place where you get committed?
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Um, so it's uh it's called the it's a it's a veteran center and it's largely just a bunch of combat veterans.
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Um and it was really awesome.
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Uh a lot of them are Christians, and they won't walked us through, walked me through just sitting down, meditating, all the stuff that I like to make fun of.
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They were like sit and do this, and it was really good.
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Um, did some EMDR.
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Yeah.
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Uh tell people who don't know what EMDR is.
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EMDR is this eye movement stuff that helps you unlock trauma so you can redo it, and then you can read your trauma and reorder it better so that way you can file it away with different emotions, so that way when you go through it next time, you're not experiencing the crazy, you don't get the heightened sentences, sentences, but you're able to experience it like a normal person rather than going.
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Were you able to kind of bring Jesus even into that?
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Like they did actually, yeah.
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That's how I've seen EMDR best use.
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It's like, hey, I want you as you go back to experiences, I want you to see Jesus right there with you, loving you through this process.
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100%.
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Yeah.
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So um, so the group that our our back end group is a Christian mission organization of veterans.
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Um, and because of that, when they were there, they were there saying, Hey, he's a Christian, we want all this stuff centered around Christ, and that's what it was.
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What a cool ministry.
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Wow.
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All right, so you still have cancer at that point.
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Oh, yeah.
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You're like cancer, cancer, cancer, poop and blood, crazy thoughts of like anger and rage and all that.
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You go to this place, things get better in in your head.
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Do you slow down?
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How does how does your brain unwind?
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Oh, I don't know.
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It just did.
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I just uh I just was like slowly normal.
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Um, but I wasn't normal and didn't realize that really.
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I thought I was normal.
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And so your wife was like, You are such a crazy person, I don't want to be around you.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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So she did that, and then well, so she came home and we went to this really amazing camp called Life Action in Northern Michigan.
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Yeah, it's a Christian camp.
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Um, and it was there that they counseled her to she, they were like, He's kind of crazy, you guys should probably separate.
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And that's when we started separating, and then after that, she found in in my opinion, she went through counselors that were less than Christian, and they all counseled divorce.
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Um, and so I was like, I'm trying, I'm trying, and it just didn't matter.
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And then uh we moved here to Texas, and that's where we ended up divorcing, unfortunately.
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All right.